Personality Deficient

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Submitted by Dungbeetle, this article belongs to the Poker and Life series

It’s been a while since I’ve checked up on Dungbeetle’s poker life on the Magical Mystery Poker Tour blog. Last I heard he was not doing well and sadly the bad streak has not improved. Below is a particular sad post which I have chosen to post here because it reminds me that no matter how many times we keep saying to ourselves that poker is a variance game and bad beats / losing streaks are supposed to happen, sometimes they simply get the better of us leaving us miserable.

Work finished early today, so I thought I’d continue my hate/hate relationship with online tournaments and promptly lost $600 without ever coming close to the money. I played poorly, but seemed to be cold decked a lot.

The highlights:

– Held AA on a board of AK78K whilst going well in a $100 tournie. Lost to KK. Money all went in on the river after we both slow played.
– Flopped 9 high diamond flush out of small blind when average stack in a $75 tournie – other guy has ten high flush
– Held QQ on KQxx board in UB tournie – got it in against KQ – river = K

I’m not really complaining as I didn’t play well. In 2007 and 2008 I was dynamite in online tournaments, taking down about 85k in profit. Now I am just making up the numbers. I actually canned 2 tournaments with average stack tonight – there is just no point, so I might as well be blinded off.

Not sure what the answer is. My son, girlfriend, friends and family are fantastic, but I just seem to get down on myself and that clouds everything.

Clearly I’ve had a few wines before this post, but maybe it’s good to get stuff off the chest. However, it seems the upcoming Vegas trip is a car crash waiting to happen.

I think time and again how lucky I am – there are millions of people in the world who are much worse off either financially or health wise. Despite this self coaching I am unable to lift this downer.

I need to lift out of this pathetic self-pity, but whether I have the strength to do this is another matter.

About to play football manager………..anger factor about to rise by a multiple of ten.

Apologies readers for you wasting five minutes to read this drivel

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